Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Healthy or Unhealthy?
A year and a half later, she hates her job, and I'm pretty content with mine, which brings me to my point. When the two of us were looking for work, she only wanted full time, she applied for everything that she was remotely qualified for, while I was a bit pickier in that I was looking for the right job--full-time or part-time. I honestly can't decide if that makes me smart or dumb when it comes to job hunting. Since I've never had a full-time job, I'm a bit intimidated at the notion. I'm afraid to put all my eggs in one basket, to commit to 40 hours a week somewhere without really knowing what I'm getting into, especially if taking a full-time job means settling for something I'm less enthusiastic about.
What if I hate it? What if my co-workers are deranged? What if it's just a miserable place to work? At least if I have two part-time jobs, I can leave one and still have some income. Of course, my friend has been making more money than me all along, so she could leave her job and have a healthier savings account than me. And she has health insurance, so she's not running the risk of some kind of medical emergency that wipes out her savings.
I honestly go back and forth about this and whether my attitude of wanting to find a job where I first like the people that I work with is more important than the actual job is a healthy one or not. The problem with my profession, librarianship, is that some libraries are just miserable places to work. Librarians can be catty, deceptive, lazy, miserable and mean and I would rather not get stuck with a situation like that. On the flip side, librarians can also be hilarious, brilliant, generous and just wonderful overall--clearly those are the people I'd like to work with.
So which comes first, the good job, or the benefits? What makes a job good in the first place? Maybe working full-time at a job that's only ok is just part of being a grownup--the part that escapes me so far. I honestly don't know, but I would love some feedback on this.