|What's that? You need coverage? I'm your girl!|
It only seems fitting that while I was at my first day back at University Library, I should get an email from Public Library, where I am also an on-call librarian, asking me to cover some shifts over the summer. Of course, I'm happy to help out, but after adding these extra days to my calendar, I started to panic a bit and feel like I was going back to that old schedule of no days off that very nearly made me crazy. That feeling was amplified by the fact that I basically agreed to go to work immediately after running a 1/2 marathon. I mean, I think I did. My boss (former boss?) just sent me an email saying "you go girl!" So I assume that means "come to work."
However, one thing I have to remember is, filling in at a library is really not like working there. I don't have projects to work on, I don't really have any responsibility other than being there, and I have the bonus of people being really happy to see me--with time-and-a half on Sundays! It's totally low-stress. This is something I need to keep in mind.
I have to say, and please don't think this is me complaining, but working full-time has been a bit of letdown as far as my take-home pay is concerned. I'm making less with this job than I was working part-time at two (sometimes three) places because now I'm paying for health and dental insurance, 401k deductions and union dues. It was a bit of a jolt when I realized how puny my take-home pay actually is, especially since I have all this extra time to amuse myself with adventures. I certainly make enough to live a comfortable life, but it's still shocking how a month of treating myself and then getting slammed by a major car repair bill have kind of decimated my cash flow. I feel like I live a frugal enough life that I should have a bit of extra money. I rarely eat out, I don't go to movies that often, I don't shop recreationally, I don't do all of those things that financial advisors always tell people to cut out when they're trying to save. Yet, I still feel broke.
When I wind up in a situation like this, I look at how other people live, and try to figure out how they can afford it, which is not a very healthy thing to do. Does anyone else ever do that, or am I just weird?
For instance, I used to work with this guy who was really into video games. He was a stereotypical nerd, and we got to talking one day about travel. He made a remark about how even though he really wanted to travel, he'd never be able to afford it. Then he did the thing that I hate most and basically said that I was spoiled and my parents had paid for all my travels (not so).
|This is not how I travel|
His answer, "about $200."
My response, "That's $2400/year and plenty for a trip to Europe."
|This is much more my scene|
No wallowing and no lamenting my lost free time! If I think I'm broke, I should work when given the chance; if I think I'm tired of working so much, I should just say no. It really is all up to me for good or for bad.