Last Saturday, it was a lovely day outside. Clear skies, 64 degrees, the perfect day to go for a walk and I tried to talk myself into doing just that. Here's a recap of the conversation I had with myself:
It's a beautiful day! I should go for a walk!
Maybe I should walk on the treadmill, I really want to make it count
and I don't really like to power walk outside.
That's silly, the whole point is to get out there!
I guess I could walk to Berk's and look at those shoes....
No, I don't need more shoes, and Berk's is less than a mile away,
that's barely a walk.
I could walk to Wildflour and get a cupcake.
You don't need a cupcake.
But Wildflour is almost three miles away, that's a good long walk. I could get a juice.
You can't go to a particular business just because it's far away,
and I'm talking you out of paying $6 for a juice.
After that mental wrestle, I just stayed in and read a book.
The problem is, I love to go for walks, but it's not as fun alone and without a purpose, it just feels weird and uncomfortable. Going for a run, that's a thing, but just going for a walk by yourself... I don't know.
My mother and I always went for walks when I was growing up, and it was great. We'd walk and talk and it was really the only time we spent alone. Since my mother and I are not close at all, it was nice to know that we could always go for a walk and catch up with each other. BF thinks walking is boring and it's like pulling teeth to get him to go around the block with me. Even when I bribe him with an ice cream treat, our walk is only to the store and back (four blocks).
When I was in grad school, I used to go to Old Navy every day to walk around mainly because it's a huge store and I didn't want to appear to be one of those 'mall walkers.' Those people are the worst. This walking habit costs me hundreds in Old Navy clothes (at least they're cheap). After I got tired of going to Old Navy every day, I started going to Target and Bed Bath and Beyond.
|If I lived closer to the beach I could walk by myself--people do that.|
But I don't want to live by the beach, and I live right by a park where people also walk
So this problem is on-going, and honestly, one of the main reasons I picked Providence as a place to move is because it's so walkable--but I still need an agenda.
Part of this problem is solved by the fact that I can walk to work--so that's good. I can get the walking out of my system and get paid when I arrive at my destination, but what about days off? How can I get my walking fix without going broke? Perhaps this is something I just need to get over, or perhaps I need to lie to myself about where I'm walking, perhaps there's another solution I haven't considered.
Anyone else have this problem? Any suggestions?