Obviously, that's not true. I do know how to walk, but what I don't know, is how to walk for the pure pleasure of walking. I do not know how to walk without walking somewhere, and usually that somewhere is a place where I spend money.
Last Saturday, it was a lovely day outside. Clear skies, 64 degrees, the perfect day to go for a walk and I tried to talk myself into doing just that. Here's a recap of the conversation I had with myself:
After that mental wrestle, I just stayed in and read a book.
The problem is, I love to go for walks, but it's not as fun alone and without a purpose, it just feels weird and uncomfortable. Going for a run, that's a thing, but just going for a walk by yourself... I don't know.
My mother and I always went for walks when I was growing up, and it was great. We'd walk and talk and it was really the only time we spent alone. Since my mother and I are not close at all, it was nice to know that we could always go for a walk and catch up with each other. BF thinks walking is boring and it's like pulling teeth to get him to go around the block with me. Even when I bribe him with an ice cream treat, our walk is only to the store and back (four blocks).
When I was in grad school, I used to go to Old Navy every day to walk around mainly because it's a huge store and I didn't want to appear to be one of those 'mall walkers.' Those people are the worst. This walking habit costs me hundreds in Old Navy clothes (at least they're cheap). After I got tired of going to Old Navy every day, I started going to Target and Bed Bath and Beyond.
Here's a line from a blog post I wrote in 2008: "I went to the mall on Saturday. I had to go pick up a pair
of shelves (at some chick’s house) that I found on craigslist at 11am,
and while I was carrying them to my car, I realized that it was a
beautiful day. The sun was shining brightly for the first
time in quite a while, yet it was crisp and refreshing—the kind of
weather where you want to get shit done. So I went to one
of the places I hate most in the world, (also indoors because regardless
of how lovely the day is, I’m just not an outside girl. I don’t have an outside agenda, and as much as I do sometimes long to walk for pleasure, I prefer to walk somewhere so I know when I’m done)."
So this problem is on-going, and honestly, one of the main reasons I picked Providence as a place to move is because it's so walkable--but I still need an agenda.
Part of this problem is solved by the fact that I can walk to work--so that's good. I can get the walking out of my system and get paid when I arrive at my destination, but what about days off? How can I get my walking fix without going broke? Perhaps this is something I just need to get over, or perhaps I need to lie to myself about where I'm walking, perhaps there's another solution I haven't considered.
Anyone else have this problem? Any suggestions?
Last Saturday, it was a lovely day outside. Clear skies, 64 degrees, the perfect day to go for a walk and I tried to talk myself into doing just that. Here's a recap of the conversation I had with myself:
It's a beautiful day! I should go for a walk!
Maybe I should walk on the treadmill, I really want to make it count
and I don't really like to power walk outside.
That's silly, the whole point is to get out there!
I guess I could walk to Berk's and look at those shoes....
No, I don't need more shoes, and Berk's is less than a mile away,
that's barely a walk.
I could walk to Wildflour and get a cupcake.
You don't need a cupcake.
But Wildflour is almost three miles away, that's a good long walk. I could get a juice.
You can't go to a particular business just because it's far away,
and I'm talking you out of paying $6 for a juice.
After that mental wrestle, I just stayed in and read a book.
The problem is, I love to go for walks, but it's not as fun alone and without a purpose, it just feels weird and uncomfortable. Going for a run, that's a thing, but just going for a walk by yourself... I don't know.
My mother and I always went for walks when I was growing up, and it was great. We'd walk and talk and it was really the only time we spent alone. Since my mother and I are not close at all, it was nice to know that we could always go for a walk and catch up with each other. BF thinks walking is boring and it's like pulling teeth to get him to go around the block with me. Even when I bribe him with an ice cream treat, our walk is only to the store and back (four blocks).
When I was in grad school, I used to go to Old Navy every day to walk around mainly because it's a huge store and I didn't want to appear to be one of those 'mall walkers.' Those people are the worst. This walking habit costs me hundreds in Old Navy clothes (at least they're cheap). After I got tired of going to Old Navy every day, I started going to Target and Bed Bath and Beyond.
If I lived closer to the beach I could walk by myself--people do that. But I don't want to live by the beach, and I live right by a park where people also walk |
So this problem is on-going, and honestly, one of the main reasons I picked Providence as a place to move is because it's so walkable--but I still need an agenda.
Part of this problem is solved by the fact that I can walk to work--so that's good. I can get the walking out of my system and get paid when I arrive at my destination, but what about days off? How can I get my walking fix without going broke? Perhaps this is something I just need to get over, or perhaps I need to lie to myself about where I'm walking, perhaps there's another solution I haven't considered.
Anyone else have this problem? Any suggestions?
Find somewhere that you really LOVE to walk, like a park. Somewhere that is fun to explore. I walk at our rec area because I like to bird watch and be by the lake. This probably sounds way easier than it is. :D
ReplyDeleteI can't run, so any outdoor cardio is walking. We have a few nice (paved) walking/running/biking/skating trails around here that I enjoy walking on. If you think of it the same way you think of running, you'd probably enjoy it more. I have my ipod and a few landmarks to know how far I've gone, just like a runner would do, but without the pain and hardship of dealing my knee problems.
ReplyDeleteI understand the walking alone thing. For me, it's just terrifying to be alone with my demon-like thoughts. Podcasts are very helpful in that respect. It provides a focal point for my thoughts and keeps me going. Comedy podcasts are my favorite, but to each their own.
ReplyDeletei agree, walking with an ipod helps you feel less "alone" and people seem to recognize you are walking like you mean it.
ReplyDeleteSeriously @Fargo, demon-like thoughts!?! I'm starting to worry about you...
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